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Saying I Love You
Don’t you just love first “I love you”s? It doesn’t even have to be in real life. I always get tingles when I’m watching a TV show or film, or reading a book, and two characters say “I love you” for the first time. It’s a leap of faith, that first “I love you.” You never quite know how the other person will react. I was so nervous the first time I told my girlfriend I loved her, but the big moment turned out to be just a little moment. Just a peaceful little moment in bed with my Sweet.
It happened the first time Sweet and I spent a night sleeping all spooned up together in the same bed. We lay in the pitch blackness of her bedroom, basking in afterglow. She was the inside spoon. I was on the outside with my arms wrapped around her, kissing her shoulder. For weeks, I’d been moderately distraught, over my neurotic inability to flat out say, “I love you.” I kept thinking it and kept feeling it. I just couldn’t say it.
“You know so much about me,” she said that night, having finally come out to me as transsexual. “In fact, you know more about me than anyone else. I never thought I’d meet someone so accepting. You’ve helped me to feel happy with myself.”
I smiled. “Of course I’m accepting. I want you to feel comfortable telling me all your secrets.”
“There must be some secret you have,” Sweet said. “Is there nothing you’ve been keeping from me?”
“There is,” I told her. Then I started rambling. “But, see, if I say it now it’ll seem like a big deal. It isn’t. I mean, it’s something I tell my friends all the time, but I’m just so afraid it’ll scare you somehow. I’m afraid you’ll think I’m some obsessive fatal-attraction psycho.”
Sweet laughed, facing away from me in the dark. “What are you trying to tell me?”
“It’s just that…” I held my breath. “…I love you.”
“Oh,” Sweet replied. “Well, of course you do. I already knew that. Don’t you have any other secrets?”